there are things i want to say and let you know but i know it from the very beginning the deeper i get into the more i will get hurt from it.finally i found out the truth or is it just an excuse?i don't know i don't want to think, i still have to face everything ,i need to go through this week and everything is going to be how it used to be .i keep telling myself that but now i'm feeling sad and disappointed .its really silly that i would actually think that way, but thats just how i am. i told myself to forget everything and anything that we had gone through , in front of em's i told them i was fine and i will be thinking of something else the next day but it was just a lie i can't infact the more i hope not to think bout it the more i will be thinking , someone told me that you shouldn't have regret because you know you love him and its not wrong to love someone " he's right , but i knew this was not the person i could love and all, life was good all these while till now and then.i've always been loved and all by friends and family but when it comes to loving someone , things start falling apart and it HAPPEN'S EVERY SINGLE TIME when i fall for the certain someone. you know sometimes i keep asking why is this keep happening to me ?seriously its revolving you know nothing changed its just different person. there is things bout me no one know and everything i try to do was everything i hope it will happened to you.i'ts really hard for me to do this again i don't know what to do and what to think anymore and thank goodness exams' over if not i'm going to be dead.some may think i'm shallow ; but deeply to people who knows me i'm just not what it seems to be.i'm afraid because i'll all on my own in this dark empty box .maybe i'm the only one who is feeling like this? he's actually just treating me as a friend?it doesn't matters anymore it just don't.